We decided about a year after we were married that we wanted to start having children. Unfortunately, it hasn't worked out the way we had planned. If we chose our futures, ours would certainly be different. We'd probably have at least 2 kids by now and I would have a teaching job, but God works in mysterious ways. I have come to realize that God has the perfect plan for our lives and there is a reason why he has
Kevin and I have been blessed with 4 wonderful nephews and niece. We love them all very much. We get to spend a lot of time with them and watch them grow. I feel incredibly blessed to be an aunt and Kevin is a great uncle! We have several friends who have children. We get to see the little ones and also watch them grow. Kevin and I have learned a great deal about parenting through these experiences. There is a reason we have not conceived and why several of our friends have. I believe we have been blessed with children all around us so we can learn from others. Being teachers, we are always the ones teaching and don't really learn. I think that God wants us to step back and learn from those around us. I think that we will both be great parents because of this.
Both of our families are very supportive and pray for us on a regular basis. We are very grateful for their prayers. We lift everything up to God and pray that one day we will conceive and when we do, that child will be a blessing from God.
We have been trying to get pregnant now for almost 3 years and believe me it has been a struggle, for both of us. I, personally, have gotten to the point where I am relying fully on God and have passed the point of depression. Again, it will happen when it's supposed to happen.
Don't get me wrong, we aren't just sitting back and doing nothing. We are seeing doctors and trying to figure out if there are any problems. So far, there hasn't been any issues found. We recently saw a fertility doctor in Grand Rapids for a consultation but after some thought, have decided to check out a different fertility specialist in GR. Just today, I called to schedule an appointment for an initial consultation and hopefully we can get the process moving a little quicker.
I pray that by the end of the year, we are blessed with a little one we can call our very own.
I don't write this as a "whoa is me," "please feel sorry for me" message. I write it as a release and a prayer request. Kevin and I have kept this information to ourselves and immediate family for a long time. We have just recently started sharing this information with others outside of our family. We feel that at this time it is necessary to share. We have been married for 4 years and we very badly want children of our own. Believe me, it wasn't our plan to wait this long. But we all must realize that God is in complete control and He, alone, knows exactly how our stories are written.
